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Name: Joel
Birthday: 5/25/1980
Gender: Male
Interests: Bass, guitar, sitting around, listening to music and sitting around, being overworked or really bored(never an in-between), watching movies, chillin with the homies, complaining(I swear, I really don't like the book of Job)
Expertise: the art of being silly and/or different
Occupation: Medical
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AIM:  shmitty01
Member Since:
7/1/2003
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| Another chapter of life is written. You think you know what's going on, then strange twists and turns happen at the end of the chapter. It is the official end of the 2nd quarter of my residency. I feel like I'm where I should be at this point. I look back and understand how far I've come in the past 6 months. I can't believe I'm done with 2 quarters already. Residency is half over. I can't complain, but man........there's so much for me to learn yet. And so many skills to develop. I've changed as a person too. I'm hoping some of the changes that have happened are permanent. I would hate to lapse back into old problems and have them plague me yet again. I hope to become yet more of an outgoing person at work. I can be sometimes. The only time I really lose it is when I feel akward about myself. It happens sometimes. I have to work on it and gain confidence in what I do. If I translate confidence to others, their respect for me and what I do will be greater. It's always been a challenge to me to have self confidence. I've always felt like there was something holding me back from being all I could be. I guess it's mostly been imagined as I find that I'm more talented and skilled than most other people when I put my mind to it and do my best. Always a challenge. Always need practice. I guess looking at where I am in my life and my age, I'm not so far off from where I should be. I'll always improve at everything. When I'm in my 40's, I'll be a powerful practitioner. I realize the potential as a man, a role model, an orthotist, a husband, a father, etc that God has built into me. I don't want to fail in life. I want to be all that God has made me capable of being. I have to put away my selfishness and gain confidence over time. I'm trying my hardest. My youth is one of my strongest assets, yet also a setback to me. Oh well.......the chapters in this part of the book of life are necessary to the development of the story, yet some of the hardest to get through....... Oh well. It's where God has me right now....... On to a new quarter, probably a new office. Could be a time for me to shine or to sink, depending on how things go with Joe......... | | |
| Shifting perspectives. That's the title of today's installment. There's a point that you come to in your life where you realize what the truth of reality is and have to make decisions. Sometimes, reality and fantasy can overlap. But other times, the imperfect world we live in throws you challenges to deal with in addition to blessings. And sometimes, God makes it work out that way. As of right now, I sit and scratch my head where all of my friends will end up(as well as where I will end up). Times change. People change. And circumstances change. So maybe I'm off on a philosophical rant right now that pretty much anyone(or nobody) could or should read into. I have spent little time at work lately with the holidays, yet have found myself the busiest I've been in months the past couple weeks. I really haven't been home at all. I heart my palm pilot I got from frank(actually best termed "little portable computer") I have too much fun with it. Christmas come and gone. Jo and I spend much time together over the holidays. Things go well for those who didn't already know that. Off to bed as work comes again tomorrow...... | | |
| It hit me today that I'm a workaholic sometimes. Haha. It dawned on me since I was cooped up inside all day with it freezing and I was bored senseless. I was actually wishing I was at work for some odd reason. I guess I want to get work over with for the week so I can get on to my vacation and then do what I really want to. Or maybe I just like work.......sigh....... I hate winter. Back to boredom. | | |
| Another week has come and gone. A good week I might add. I was busy at work, then not so busy. Weird. I found out I have 2 floating personal days I have to take or else I lose them. So I think I will be off weds next week and tues the following week. Which means I get to stay out late at fusion one night. I spent a good amount of time with Jolene this week, and my mom is none too happy with me. She says it's going to catch up to me and interfere with my work schedule. It really isn't. I strategically plan the way I do things so as to function at my maximum and still have a social life. Almost done christmas shopping. I dunno what to get mom's boyfriend yet. I'm clueless. He wants me to be there on christmas eve with him and my mom to meet all of his kids and such. All 6 are coming home, including the one who lives in france. I think I'll arrange it to be there and maybe also hopefully get over to see Jo too, cuz that's important to me. No news in my life. No real home or work drama to talk about either. Things are unusually ok at the moment. I know God is gonna have to shake me up a little somehow sooner or later so I don't get stale with life going peachy. That's it for this episode. | | |
| A relaxing weekend so far. I'm in the holiday spirit for some reason. Must be the snow or something. I went to hang out with keith for a couple hours earlier. We were catching up on stuff. He hasn't changed much lately. I have. Haha. I went christmas shopping afterwards for an hour or so. I got christmas presents for a couple people. I still need to get mom's boyfriend something. I've been shelling out the cash on stuff cuz I actually can this year. Tomorrow is church again. This week could be really long. Work is getting nutso busy. We are trying to cram everyone in before christmas since we lose a day. Not sure what I'm going to do all day tomorrow since I got everything I wanted to done today. Anyways, off to get a shower and bed and such....... | | |
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